VERGE OF DYING

my life have been so hectic since sec 3 started ,so tired . i want to sleep so much so that i long for my bed .study study study it is all i every do .well i plan to get straight As for my exam .i just realised that i suck so much in band .my playing is so bad that i am now scared of recording my french horn sound .I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO MY FRENCH HORN SOUND WORSE THAN THE CAR HORN .I REALLY DON'T WANT THE BAND TO GET BRONZE BECAUSE OF ME .I FIND I SUCK. MY LIFE SUCKS. MY STUDY SUCKS . MY FRENCH HORN PLAYING SUCKS . MY PIANO SUCKS .I AM ON A VERGE OF DYING