VERGE OF DYING

my life have been so hectic since sec 3 started ,so tired . i want to sleep so much so that i long for my bed .study study study it is all i every do .well i plan to get straight As for my exam .i just realised that i suck so much in band .my playing is so bad that i am now scared of recording my french horn sound .I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO MY FRENCH HORN SOUND WORSE THAN THE CAR HORN .I REALLY DON'T WANT THE BAND TO GET BRONZE BECAUSE OF ME .I FIND I SUCK. MY LIFE SUCKS. MY STUDY SUCKS . MY FRENCH HORN PLAYING SUCKS . MY PIANO SUCKS .I AM ON A VERGE OF DYING

damm happy

wooooooooooooooooo!just came back from hong kong not long ago . it was so fun .i misss you joyann i hope we can have another trip like this someday .you will always be my true friend !!!just went POP yesterday thought i will not have any awards so i did not seriously learn the steps . but when i got the outsanding performer i was surprised and scarded what was i susposed to do . lucky i finished it ok . this morning i got another award a good progess award by the gorvernment $150 i am going to get .so damm happy

DON'T GIVE UP !!!JIAYOU !!!

yea going Hong Kong in 2 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!so happy !but i am going to miss a band practice. a bit sad though .......... this tuesday i felt quite bad in band my playing was sooooo bad but i am never going to give up .no way.i must jiayou .PEI HSIEN JIAYOU !!!!!!!!DON'T GIVE UP !!! BE THE MODEL FOR THE REST ................................

holiday please come faster!!!!!

yea going to hong kong soon ! can't wait but first have to learn how to flutter.why so difficult for me everybody can do it why can't i ? looks like i have to beg Mr Jasen to cut of that part but he just don't want to . also so difficult t reach high Gflat . sian going to princess elizabeth primary school concert i think the french horn players play much more better than me .i really have to work hard than next year than can teach my little sec 1 juniors

sickkk

had piano lessons today !auntie annie (teacher) kept on pushing me to the limit.she kept on making me sight read the grade 5 exam piece .maybe i was too tired as i just came back from camp the day before.i could not see properly .vision too blur from c read to e. from 5 lines read to 6 lines .felt very sick this afternoon. had headache ,fever and the whole body aching .popped a panodol and went to sleep.felt better after that . lucky did not tell mum or she will make a fuss again.did not have not much appetite .maybe this is a good chance to lose weight.

JUST STUFF

so tried! just came back from band camp .it started one day after my bday 23rd november .quite upset that wong jia xin was the only one who gave me a present . she gave me a little french horn. some of my friends wished me happy bday on that very day.i think MrJasen is a bit crazy irritating and annoying me during the band camp.however it was fun playing around with him.i feel like i am already closer to the band playing around like this . i really enjoyed the band camp.Mr Jasen said to have a vision in everything you do .my vision is to make every french horn member in the section to play the correct note and rythm for the SYF.i am going to work hard to achieve my goal. firstly i am going to prefect my skills first then i will make the whole section do it then Mr Jasen will never worry about the french horns again.

so tired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

have been trying my best to lose my best to lose weight ,but to no avil .swimming ,jogging whatever i tried . now ,i just want to go to a place and forget all my problems a place with no problems ,no discrimination ,no saddness ,no suffering, nothing but just happiness .fats it is really a scary thing .it makes you lose confidence in yourself .it makes people isolate you some even hate you ,tease you. is it that important to be have outer beauty?i just want all those people to tease me know that it' not that i want to be fat ,it' just so hard to lose weight ,so hard .so please stop teasing me .i can't hold anymore hurtful remarks anymore . i am afraid i would have a nervous breakdown.