damm happy

wooooooooooooooooo!just came back from hong kong not long ago . it was so fun .i misss you joyann i hope we can have another trip like this someday .you will always be my true friend !!!just went POP yesterday thought i will not have any awards so i did not seriously learn the steps . but when i got the outsanding performer i was surprised and scarded what was i susposed to do . lucky i finished it ok . this morning i got another award a good progess award by the gorvernment $150 i am going to get .so damm happy

DON'T GIVE UP !!!JIAYOU !!!

yea going Hong Kong in 2 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!so happy !but i am going to miss a band practice. a bit sad though .......... this tuesday i felt quite bad in band my playing was sooooo bad but i am never going to give up .no way.i must jiayou .PEI HSIEN JIAYOU !!!!!!!!DON'T GIVE UP !!! BE THE MODEL FOR THE REST ................................

holiday please come faster!!!!!

yea going to hong kong soon ! can't wait but first have to learn how to flutter.why so difficult for me everybody can do it why can't i ? looks like i have to beg Mr Jasen to cut of that part but he just don't want to . also so difficult t reach high Gflat . sian going to princess elizabeth primary school concert i think the french horn players play much more better than me .i really have to work hard than next year than can teach my little sec 1 juniors

sickkk

had piano lessons today !auntie annie (teacher) kept on pushing me to the limit.she kept on making me sight read the grade 5 exam piece .maybe i was too tired as i just came back from camp the day before.i could not see properly .vision too blur from c read to e. from 5 lines read to 6 lines .felt very sick this afternoon. had headache ,fever and the whole body aching .popped a panodol and went to sleep.felt better after that . lucky did not tell mum or she will make a fuss again.did not have not much appetite .maybe this is a good chance to lose weight.

JUST STUFF

so tried! just came back from band camp .it started one day after my bday 23rd november .quite upset that wong jia xin was the only one who gave me a present . she gave me a little french horn. some of my friends wished me happy bday on that very day.i think MrJasen is a bit crazy irritating and annoying me during the band camp.however it was fun playing around with him.i feel like i am already closer to the band playing around like this . i really enjoyed the band camp.Mr Jasen said to have a vision in everything you do .my vision is to make every french horn member in the section to play the correct note and rythm for the SYF.i am going to work hard to achieve my goal. firstly i am going to prefect my skills first then i will make the whole section do it then Mr Jasen will never worry about the french horns again.

so tired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

have been trying my best to lose my best to lose weight ,but to no avil .swimming ,jogging whatever i tried . now ,i just want to go to a place and forget all my problems a place with no problems ,no discrimination ,no saddness ,no suffering, nothing but just happiness .fats it is really a scary thing .it makes you lose confidence in yourself .it makes people isolate you some even hate you ,tease you. is it that important to be have outer beauty?i just want all those people to tease me know that it' not that i want to be fat ,it' just so hard to lose weight ,so hard .so please stop teasing me .i can't hold anymore hurtful remarks anymore . i am afraid i would have a nervous breakdown.

stress! urgh!can't take it

damm sian !been trying to improve my french horn playing .but it seems .no use. no help i really have no confidence in my playing .really been trying very hard even on the days where i did not bring home the horn, i been playing the F.O.G in the computer and writing notes on the score . really can't take it anymore . no matter what i do nothing seems to be improving .so depressed on monday Mr Jasen said he had to cut down band members because the strength of french horns are so weak .i really feel it is my fault not bonding my section together.after boon hwee left the section started fall apart. i don't understand why won't hui ming listen to me .sometimes i really think i failed as i senior .during sectionals last time whenever i tried to lead the section hui ming just would not listen .she would be playing herself not wanting to follow me .i know me myself is not good but at least play as section.then the others would be influence by her and start to play themselves. is is bad as Mr Jasen say we have to play as a section then as upper bass,bass,and finally a band .so whenever i think of hui ming coming back to band i would get mixed feelings on one hand i want her to come back to increase the french horn strength on the other i do not want her to come back as she may disrupt sectionals again. i really suggest that since it is the holidays there can be more band practices so we can buck up .futhermore ,SYF is nearing .i really long for more band practices .as if we really want to do well for the SYF we should work hard for it not slack slack .

music

yesterday i just watched the NYP concert .i was so amazed .the french horn section they had is just so powerful .although there were only 5 of them they we so loud, so powerful.i wished i was them ,their skills are so good .to be able to play that well they must have practiced a lot.many of my friends kept asking me when will i be like that .even my conductor, Mr Jasen asked me the same question .however i told everybody no matter what i will try my best and work hard for the SYF.

band ,music

today just had band practice so fun!i was late!so embarassing!i played a solo part in Fate Of Gods so scary ! almost died of heart attack !i played many notes wrongly but Mr Jasen did not say anything .maybe he knew that i was too nervous.as i usually could do it. phew! it was finally over !however i am going to practice so much harder and do well foy the SYF.

my blog

yea!i Finally i made my blog .............so happy!i made this blog as i really wanted to put all my feelings into it.School has already ended, exams over .can have but i do not kow why i feel so lonely.so abandon ...........so left out by my so called ''friends''. Are we really friends?