it still hurts so much more............

siting in the class foll of people i don't like.no one knows how it feels .the feeling that you are treated as an invisible .even if you try your best to fit it ,it backfires .people start thinking you are a nusiance ..it still hurts .
you are being humilated,critised and misunderstood countless times .all they do is laugh about it and it is over ......it still hurts.
but what they don't know is that they have left i deep and painful scar on someones heart.it will hurt for there entire life.but will anyone remember .......it still hurts.
they think that your heart is made up of diamond , unbreakable and undestructable.
but they are utterly wrong.your heart is just like thairs ,made up of flesh and blood and it hurts when being hurt .but my heart is just numb.it is unfeeling.but no matter what ,it still hurts .
you have to put up a brave front everytime.so that they do not think of you as a weaking ,a crybaby.but when you put on a brave front for long ,they just keep on doing it waiting for you to break down.
your heart has been scar many times over and over again.what is left is just self pity and sorrowness.it still hurts................................

longgggggggg week

i has been such a long week! sorry that i did not update for so long .
life has been ups and downs .it was never easy from the start but looks like it gotten worse .
have never studied more than this in my entire life .homework are looking like sky scarpers to me.
. i don't even want to think about self study . i think i might go to the mental hospital soon.
band have been boring and tiring .no longer have that drive anymore .but at least i have friends there that make me feel like going there.but it has been so long . i miss my old self.the one that always loved single thing i did .the attitude that was never sian.but looks like i may never find it back again.PLEASE COME BACK TO ME!!!!
everyday i just wish for the time i can lie on the bed to sleep .to rest myself.i realize there are many 2 faced people .i don't want to name who or from where.but they are getting on my nerves .so you guys noe who you are and better stay out of my way.
jasmine please DO NOT PULL MY SHIRT EVER AGAIN.