3days to SYF ..............

feeling better already ......hoping to be well by tuesday.SYF is only 3 days away .
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASEN ....OLD MAN ALREADY. lucky i did not forget or else he can find reason to saun me ..did not get him any present but i think his greatest present would be on 1st april so bandmates u know what to do right !!!!continue to jia you!!!
when to singapore conference hall yesterday ,with viandra ,huiting.jasmine,liew jiaxin and wai minto watch a concert by some bands .so envious of them all of their horn sections have more than 3 people some more most of them are guys .not like our band only have 3 girls ....sian.

being sick sucks ...i hate dry cough

today went to school like usual .early in the morning wanted to vomit the whole time .but after recess felt better .today throat damn pain can sore .pain and dry .cough for the whole day had dry cough made throat even worst.
ate recess with 2e4 .missed the happy times with them.wai min already recovered form fever .now i think is mine n xingqi turn of being sick ......so sad.....i think tonight i going to have fever already .........sad...

super exhausted ,sick

super exhausted. this whole week had band continuously for 4 days ,i am so tired. feel like i am getting sick already .had been coughing and having running nose for the whole day.miss Elyeannie .hope she is fine .she had fever yesterday during band.rest well my junior.more and more people getting sick already . everybody take care of ur health.today sick,no mood to post much.sian..................

last day of school

today is the last day of school!yeah! happy but sad .mixed feelings.happy that i can sleep late now .have time to catch up on my school work.but got my report book all Bs and Cs only 1 A and one more F .5 over 100 for Amaths so sad.

now i just have 4 new sec 1 juniors .all annoying but cute.love them a lot and cherish them .ALEX the SUPER annoying and irritating one .always like to disturb my sectionals. BUT CAN BE SERIOUS AT TIMES. JINGYI the introvert one VERY QUIET .PLEASE BE MORE SOCIALABLE .looks like now i have to plan section outings .sianz. more work.XIAWEI the same as ALEX same kind .perfect couple.i think something is going on always look at each other and smile .SWEET LOVE ! SO CUTE! XUANWEE also quite introvet .very forgetful .dropped mouth mouthpiece twice even though i told him not to continuously .sign .kids are like that.ANYWAY HOPE THEY BECOME BETTER THAN ME IN THE NEAR FUTURE .HOPE THEY ALL STAY AS 1 SECTION .I HOPE ALL SURVIVE BECAUSE ONLY THE STRONG SURVIVE . THAT IS WHAT JASEN SAID .THAT MEANS I AM STRONG .YEAH!

TODAY WHEN TO SECTIONALS .BENJAMIN SO FUNNY .KEEP ON SINGING f.O.G and overture to edwin and shiyan to train .then he ownself high .then sing high notes keep on off pitch me ,shimin and jiaxin keep on laufhing all the way home.hahahahahahaha!!!!!

music exchange

yesterday, went to music exchange with band .bukitview was also playing F.O.G .i was super scared.my first solo was great no mistakes .but the 2nd one sucked .the other conductors was suggesting that we cut it away .but JASEN OPOSED STRONGLY SAYING THAT IT MIGHT BRING US TO GOLD IF WE 3 COULD PLAY IT WELL .yeah!!!so jia yous i am not going to let the band down. saw he xun from north vista but the dao me . sad.after that went to j8 to have lunch . jasen turned crazy again and without thinking i hit him unintentionally so hard . the sound was so loud.SORRY !!but u deserve it .CAN U STILL WAVE UR BATON !!hahaHA!fake desmond that i spit saliva into the desert he was drinking . he almost puked .so fun .jasen said that our band loves to play blackjack .on some days our overture was good F.O.G was bad .yesterday ,overture was bad F.O.G. was good .ahhhhhhhhhh......so much problems.

NO CONFIDENCE

damn sad .SYF in the morning . my form worst in the morning ,lips not warm up , super sian , always in bad mood .1st april our band SYF day will be my doomsday .i think i will freak out in the bus and start crying .i super scared. solo and more solos . i don't want to be the burden ,the sinner ,to the band . then, i must eat spicy stuff especially curry than can play high notes . now i 'm at a lost ,in the morning where to get curry ?now even thinking of it makes me frightened .i feel just like a little child wanting to run away from her parents who want to hit her because she done something wrong .however she can't as it is her parents she loves them.i am feeling the exact same feeling now.much as i want to cry now .i want to be strong . but , every single time i think of SYF the very day , i would just want to back out ,hide in my bed and cry.for not having the guts to be in the limelight .the backbone of the french horn section. although after training so hard i lack the most important thing ''CONFIDENCE''.i wonder what is wrong with me this days .GOD PLEASE HELP ME GIVE THE COURAGE,CONFIDENCE. some of u may be thinking ,is the person typing really pei hsien .yes this is peihsien.

this paragraph is specially for nan gua and those who are on a verge of giving up....................
please don't give up .no matter who u are how ur playing is ,DO NOT EVER GIVE UP.GIVING UP IS NOT A NEED BUT AN OPTION.although i have no confidence i have never given up before . i don't want to fight this battle alone .for now u must never think of giving up at this point .because no matter whether u are going to SYF we are going to perform this piece many times ,so give it ur best, ur very best ,whether u are going to SYF is up to Mr Jasen not u .so even if u are not selected u will not regret .because u have given ur all.please DONT GIVE UP!